An Old Friend Says Good-bye
I'm sorry. I truly am. I realize that what I'm doing will affect a lot of people, but I can't help it. I've been battling depression since at least high school. I always thought things might get better someday. But "someday" never came. And I just don't have it in me to go on anymore. I can't make it on pills and platitudes.
I don't know what's going to happen to me on the other side. It can't be as bad as here. I wish I had time to tell you what it's been like. Nothing has ever worked out for me, no matter how hard I've tried. One can only try "one more time" just so many times. I just don't have it in me anymore. I don't know how it's going to get fixed, but the only hope I have left is that things get fixed over there.
I think the greatest tragedy in life is when a person loses all hope. Two very appropriate quotes come to mind:
"The natural flights of the human mind are not from pleasure to pleasure, but from hope to hope." -- Samuel Johnson
"The masses of men lead lives of quiet desperation." -- Thoreau
No one knows what goes thru a person's mind in those last hours. This is why we should never judge people for this, but only pray for them.